It’s love! LOL JK, I’m still single

Here I am, laying on my bed, wearing ruby red lipstick and thinking what to write about. There is no special reason why I wear red lipstick at the moment except I got excited when I actually found it after I was looking for it for days … meanwhile, I removed the lipstick and thought of something to blog about – boys. This is a subject I can always blog about. Probably because of my poor experience with them so I can approach the matter on the more observatory-ish level.
Ok, so in the past I have talked about boys and my inability to make one fall in love with me. Maybe I shouldn’t think of it as inability yet more as a God’s plan for me. Since the last post of this kind I haven’t met anyone toward whom I had even the slightest higher level attraction. I’ve been going out and NOT to find boys ’cause these are the places I am not sure I will meet the right guy but, I go there anyways. Oh, and surprise surprise – not many boys bothered to look at me, like, in a interested kinda way. That behavior of the local-town-boys has become too funny not to laugh. Seriously, I stand there and think to myself Of course they are not looking, haha. I can almost notice God’s humor when it comes to this one saying Don’t look around, you KNOW he will come when and where I say it! That is how I feel when going out. As if God is trying to say to me that I won’t find the real thing there. And I’m always like, well yeah but what if that guy is feeling the same as I feel and he just came here for no reason, too? Anyways, I have let go of everything and sometimes I even caught myself not wanting to meet anyone. Haha. How crazy is this?! I really do believe and hold on to God’s plan for my romantic life, for the real love. Yep, I do think sacred marriage is the real thing.
Okay, some may say Yeah, she is just saying that to make herself feel better because she hasn’t had boyfriends. But, I am telling you, with my clear conscience –  I am glad I have poor experience with boys. I have seen relationships of other people, bad relationships that are based on the wrong setting grounds. And why would I want that? Why would anyone want that? I know a lot people are just confused, the world expects them to act in a certain way, to have as much boyfriends as they can because that is how you get experienced! For what? I don’t judge but I wish everyone could feel the way I feel! Me, who always has been Ines and not Ines & [insert boy name]. I wish everyone could feel the hope I am feeling about the one I am going to love in the future. Remember, God always offers a way out for you, ALWAYS! No matter what you have done in your life.
Seriously, man! When I meet the guy I will throw a parade, here on blog! I will make HIM write a blog post telling you guys how lucky he is. Right? Haha! Maybe I should make him hold a piece of paper saying I am the one she has been waiting for! so you guys wouldn’t think I’m lying. Haha!
I wish I had posts such as these to read when I was 20. They would have saved me from a lot of confusion and low self-esteem issues that were worse than the ones I am experiencing right now. I wish there was someone telling me that my single years are here for me to make the best of them. To read, to take photos, to develop as a person so the right one would be like Wow! I wanna get to know her! And not because of the way I look but of the way I am. Maybe I have known all these things since forever, somewhere buried at the back of my brain but neglected them, for some reason.
If you are a girl who is stressing over not having a boyfriend, don’t feel bad. I know it is hard. I know those lonely nights when your friends are out and enjoying, you are home with a book or just watching TV with your folks, trust me, there is a reason for that! I will never regret things I have done instead of going out on those Saturday nights. I will never regret a single page of Jane Austen that kept me away from desperately trying to find a guy. Remember, that guy won’t appear out of desperation because I think it is meant for him to appear as a reward. You both will be rewards for each other. God bless you (both). Good night.
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    Nikolina

    January 17, 2012

    Ines, predivan post, baš kao i ti – ja sam uvjerena u to i sigurna sam da će te naći tvoj mr Darcy (bio on iz Pride and Prejudice ili Bridget Jones’s Diary, obojica su jednako <3)

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      Ines Perkovic

      January 17, 2012

      Hvala, Nikolina ♥ ♥ ♥
      Ako se bar jedna osoba prepozna u postu, woohoo! :))

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    Anonymous

    January 17, 2012

    Oh Ines, i follow you( in flickr and blog) for a longtime, and finally I found someone who thinks exactly like me and understand what i feel. Thank you so muck!

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      Ines Perkovic

      January 17, 2012

      Thank YOU, for your comment :)) I really means a lot, it gives me inspiration and motivation to write more on the subject which is, in my opinion, really important. Thank you and glory to the God, hope He brings our men soon :DD

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    photography by anika alonzo

    January 17, 2012

    you’re so right :) Love will find you when it’s ready, everyone before that won’t count anymore, won’t even exist anymore. It’s always better to know exactly who you are and what you want. Makes it easier in a relationship ;)

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      Ines Perkovic

      January 17, 2012

      The sweet wait is the hardest :)

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    Erin Madsen Photography

    January 18, 2012

    That’s a bit like what my mother used to tell me. She refrained from using the “God” reference because she knows I’m not religious but that’s not the point. She told me that when you stop looking, you’ll meet the most amazing person ever. It’s very true. After I gave up, I met the man who later on became my fiance. =) Sometimes they’re right in front of your face.

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    Hannah

    January 20, 2012

    Super true!! I know I’m only a freshman in college, but LOTS of my friends have BFs, and I’m just waiting for Mr. Right. God will bring him around in due time, I’m sure – and I can’t wait! But until then, it’s going to be okay. It’s an adventure! =)

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