Changes. Metaphorically and literally. Autumn is in full bloom, everyone’s favourite foliage is all around us. Days are getting shorter and more hazy (much to my delight). Somehow, I’ve always known – autumn is the season for changes. I’ve written that down (and online) so many times. I was right as I’m about to make the biggest change of my life. But, let’s start from the beginning.

I’ve never been a brave enough person, one who would knock down the walls to achieve something her heart truly desired. There have been not too many situations in life where I didn’t feel self-pressured to choose a certain path. For example, I love history and I studied it. However, when I was to choose my graduate module, I was too afraid to choose a scientific/research one because finding a job in the future is kind of blurry. Instead, I chose a teaching module. With the help of God, I got my master’s in it. But, I remember only enjoying the history courses, never the pedagogy ones. Not one. I’ve never wanted to teach. I’ve only wanted to research and love history.

When I left university, trying to get a teaching job was something it was expected for me to do. I got a few jobs but not once did I left off for work  truly happy to do so. Don’t get me wrong, kids were amazing and I will cherish the experiences forever. And, it was a decently paid job. But, I don’t have the zeal for it, like some people who are really into it. Like I said to my friend Ivana the other day – If I were to point out the happiest moments of my life in the last two years, not one would include teaching. It’s not that it was horrible but I just didn’t fully feel the passion for teaching. There were some burst of happiness as I really wanted to teach the kids stuff (not to brag, I think they really liked me). But, at the end of the day, when I was alone with my thoughts – the passion just wasn’t there.

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On the other hand, the happiest moments were the ones that included photography and living for those clicks. I’ve been into it for ten years now and I am truly thankful to God for the gift of it. Like, to the point of tears. I wish everyone could have a passion for something as I have for photography. I can not imagine my life without it. I’ve always envisioned myself taking photos forever and truly going full time. However, I was confused and scared what others might think of me if I didn’t look for teaching jobs anymore. Most people these days live less for their dreams and more for money. And there is the question of what God wants me to do. I often feel, if I don’t work in school, I’m wasting my profession. I thought I will have to teach for the rest of my life (to get the money) and truly enjoy photography aside. Like, if God set a path, why not following it even though it doesn’t make me fully happy?

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Two days ago, I had a conversation with a fellow photographer (and a friend) who was in the same situation as I am. He chose photography. He reassured me that God gave me love for history science. That’s it. Choosing to work in school was my decision as well as choosing the teaching module. And then it hit me. I made a decision.

As you might have already figured it out – from now on, I’m only going to do photography. I will no longer look for teaching jobs and will turn down offers. However, I will do my best to find a way to live the most for history. Photography and history. That’s what I want. Plain old history. I called my mom after I made the decision and got nothing but support. That’s all that matters. Family and friends support me. I know economic situation isn’t the brightest atm, but if I don’t try to go full time into photography, I will regret it. I’m in my 30’s and now it’s the time. My mom said no one can take the diploma away from me and if I decide (highly unlikely, though) to return to teaching, I can always do so. I mean – I can always do so!

Every beginning is hard and scary. I am scared because I don’t have any photography jobs booked and really don’t know where to start. However, I do have my stock business going on and will work from there (and try to amp it up 100%). It wasn’t easy making this decision. I’ve cried non stop about it. If I don’t do it now, I will always wonder what it would be like to truly go full time. I’ve already invested thousands of dollars into equipment and software – just for the love of it. Why not making a business out of it?

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The next step is visiting my job adviser and tell her all about it and maybe get an advice on where to start (even locally). I really hope I made the right decision and that photography really is a path to God for me. A path where I can fulfill my love for history, as well. Please, say a little three-word prayer for me. :)

Like I’ve already said, this autumn is for changes. The photos here were taken with the utmost delight as it was after my decision. As the greeny leaves turn gold, I hope my situation does the same (cheesy but hey!). If you have any advice for me, it would be highly appreciated. I’m off to the unknown and it feels scary! God bless!

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    Urška Majer

    October 20, 2016

    What a brave decision, Ines! Wishing you all the best and can’t wait to see all the amazing things you’ll do with photography! :)

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      Ines

      October 20, 2016

      Thank you, Urška. I consider you and your boyfriend as an inspiration for a successful runned business!

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    Robert-Paul Jansen

    October 20, 2016

    What a great decision! I know yu can do it, you have the skills!! I always have huge respect for people who follow their dreams.

    Let me know if you’re interested to join Stocksy for stock photography, I can always let them look at your work. They have great payout and might be a good second home for your work.

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      Ines

      October 20, 2016

      Thank you, Robert-Paul, for your support!

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    Nina Baršić

    October 20, 2016

    Thank you for being a huge inspiration and a blessing. God knows why He placed this desire in you ;)

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      Ines

      October 20, 2016

      Nina <3

      Thank you!

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    lI gOBARA

    October 20, 2016

    (Time does not comment here!)
    Do not be afraid. I am a fond of your photos for years and am very happy with your decision. Sometimes I spend hours in the office letting things happen, nothing happens again here. I love photography, but my rent does not allow me such a decision, so has my full support. I spent millions also with lenses, tripods, batteries and do not use so often (I know it’s horrible!).
    Last time I used my camera was in Brasilia, find Andrea (@andreadrops) and yet not edited photos :( laziness!
    Well, I wish you the best in this trajectory. You are our photography muse (and Andrea too).
    Feel yourself hugged!
    A kiss
    PS: If you want to look my instagram is @ligobara

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      Ines

      October 20, 2016

      Thank you, Li. You know, right now I’m jobless so I know what you mean. Even though we all should work toward fulfilling our dreams, sometimes money and living expenses boycott everything.

      I hope both you and I achieve whatever we have in mind :)

      Ines

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    Anna

    October 21, 2016

    Hey Ines! I’ve been following your work for years, it’s absolutely gorgeous! You really inspired me to take more interest in photography. A little bit of advice (but you’ve probably already heard it! ): ask friends and family if anyone needs a photographer for weddings, special events, graduations, etc. You have a great portfolio already with a lot of followers online, so once you put some effort into marketing yourself, you should be set! :) I hope you’ll continue to post your work on here and look forward to seeing many more inspirational photos!

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      Ines

      October 21, 2016

      Thank you so much, Anna! I really hope everything works out fine :)

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    Ivo

    October 21, 2016

    Hi Ines!
    Congrats on your courage! You did right and time will pay you off!
    My advice; engage with people and possible customers whenever and where ever you can! If there is a possible portrait shoot, a wedding, events or something else, make sure not to leave any chance out to get people’s awareness of you and your work. Talk to them. Not just online. Real talk to real people. In the beginning, it’s not about choosing, but more about getting into it. Whatever it is. After that, you will get the chance to find your stuff!
    Good luck and all the best!
    Warm regards
    Ivo

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      Ines

      October 21, 2016

      Thanks, Ivo. One thing I almost never did – major self promotion. I’ve always thought – if it happens, happens. What a bad move.

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    Natalia

    October 24, 2016

    Yaaay! Welcome to photo-family!
    I live in photo field for 6 years now, I decided to spend all my time on photography after graduating university, it was hard to get a lot of clients at first, but now i can not imagine my life without it <3
    GOOD LUCK!

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      Ines

      October 25, 2016

      Thank you, Natalia <3

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    KRistine may

    October 29, 2016

    What a brave decision, Ines! Proud of you for following what your heart truly desires. You know I’ve always been a fan of your beautiful photographs, so I truly believe that you will find success AND true happiness in photography. Good luck, dear! xx

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    Pierre

    November 13, 2016

    Hi Ines,

    thats a tough decision and one of my friends made the same. It’s a huge difference to shoot pictures you like and pictures people would pay for. You are not the type of person that takes passport images for a living so I can give you some advice. Look for collaborations. Newspapers are constantly looking for talented photographers. You would get around a lot. You are into history so maybe you are into documenting history too! If you wanna try to preserve history, you could buy a scanner and restore old photos for archives and museums. Build a local network, talk a lot to people. If you want to consider another good source of income, work as a wedding photographer. You already have a very consistent picture look, no need for huge experiments. Only buy what you really need. I know too many photographers who became gear addicts. Last but not least, demand a good payment. In the end it’s all a business.

    I hope these things help you in some way. I wish you all the best for your future!

    Pierre

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    Umer

    August 21, 2018

    Hey Ines,

    I found your blog and was looking at some of the older journal entries to hear your story. Just curious if you’ve ever looked back and thought about these turning points in your life. You’ve clearly developed your own signature style in some ways in your work and that’s inspiring to many people. It’s sad because the way of “consuming” art on Instagram is so temporary/superficial. But I’m sure there are tons of people out there who take time to let the image sink in. So on behalf of them, just want to say thank you for making the decisions you made in those nervous times in your life!

    We have a concept that God has us experience times of struggle and worry but then allows us to learn how to overcome that. As a result we become both patient and also grateful, having been through a low point and getting to experience a new high. The darkness of night beautifies the shine of dawn. I’ve only known your story for a short period of time but have found it very inspiring for many reasons. Looking forward to learning more.

    All the best! Cheers,
    Umer

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